is it worth it?

Well, before i start off yet again.. I have to thank cK for his support and his philosophies.. nd yea.. thanks to ranj too for giving me some confidence..
but yea.. is it really fair on my part to cry over this issue over and over again..??
Well.. i guess not.. Say.. a couple of years back.. or even before that.. what did she mean to me..? not much.. So why do things look so different with just some months time and why aren't we able to accept it if life wants to go back to its starting point..? Guess its making some sense now.. at least to me.. Lol..! When she is ignoring me.. i guess there is no point going after her and irritating her! The more i try to get in touch, the more she tries to get away from me! So.. its something like i am searching for my own demise.. pretty foolish..!

Sometimes it all happens in life.. U think u get committed to the best girl ever.. Your policy of 'One life One Gal' looks just perfect.. but then things start to go haywire.. and the end rule of the day.. "You never know when you are truly committed!".. Girls do change.. i have realized that.. We guys are the ones who sit pondering over things that have gone a long way away from us.. If she really loves me.. loved me rather.. she would have explained things better to me.. or maybe she explained things and its just i who didn't understand! But, when someone ignores you, its just bad.. be it any major reason.. Its hard.. but I'm 19 after all.. I've got a long way ahead.. i can't stop my journey because my shoes got worn out.. Its time to get another pair of shoes and start walking again.. And btw.. people may misinterpret what i just said.. by saying shoes.. i definitely do not mean girlfriend!

There is a lot more in life than just a relationship! We all think that she is the right girl, she is mine.. but at times it may go all wrong.. We never know who the right person is.. But i am not denying the fact that I'll be the happiest person in the world if she gets back to me! I'll cry all over her.. Haha.. A guy who sobbed all day after watching Taare Zameen Par is sure to break down if someone so close gets back to him.. Lol.. she told me so many times.. Don't be so possessive about me.. Its not the right attitude.. Whoa.. she was right!.. Too much of that possessiveness and look who is getting hurt?.. the honest loverboy..!

cK was telling me.. there can be a philosophical man.. but never a philosophical woman.. Haha.. hez got it against women but yea.. hez got a point.. show me the last woman who was philosophical! Don't get me wrong btw.. because i ain't against women! hehe..
and he told me.. "get over her man.. look for better girls.." hmm.. better? u think there is someone who is better than her?.. Even if there is someone better.. I ain't interested.. because life is not about just getting into a relationship.. is it?..
Lets just get on with life.. and who knows.. my super ex-girlfriend might end up at my doorstep one day..! Its all about your attitude.. and what i've been doing all these days was literal crap!.. I've only insulted her more by proving to be just another ordinary guy!.. Time to change though.. If we gotta change, our attitude too has to move to the next level..!